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long time [ July 16th, 2009 @ 2:11am ] Dear Friend, I write to you after a long absence. Why I write to you, I guess because I need someone outside of my world. My world consists of boring people with boring faces and boring ideas. The people who live in my world are not interesting and are bothersome by now. Life has become routine, boring, and static. A life like this is not a life, for life is constantly changing. Life is not stagnant, and when life becomes such, what you are in is a  predicament. A pickle, quizás. When you define your life using the word stagnant, it has become something slightly similar to death, but you're still forced to watch others carry on living around you and you can feel--and generally the feeling is an unnecessary perk of living in a manner of the dead. Once you define your life as routine and unchanging, you lose the spark and enjoyment that life is all about. Once that is gone, there is no purpose until you can find that happiness again. Life is about happiness and enjoying yourself. Change and new creates this. However, it must be acknowledged that not all change is positive and can create upset; but at least you're living at all and learning, as opposed to staying in the same position doing nothing.  Anyway, the only solution to stagnation is to seek, create, and/or carry out change. Turn the static to the dynamic, and life begins again. Change brings new experiences, and new experiences brings maturity, knowledge, and new emotion. Oftentimes change also brings growth, whether it be individual or within a group. Right now that's all I really want; change and new experiences. I've found, also, that new experiences require new faces. There is only so much you can do with a crowd of people in a given area in a given amount of time, and when it's all done there's no use in continuing past the end. That's like staying awake when your body is begging for sleep. It's detrimental and makes you unhappy.   I have summer theatre tomorrow at 9am. I have to be up at 7:30. It's 2:13. I should probably go to bed--my body is begging for sleep.

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